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RealizationYou're such a sweet talker.
Lies flit through my ears
Make me feel loved
Make me feel wanted
But your words aren't fully heartfelt
And who knows how much you truly mean them
I'm just projecting my own feelings into the sounds
Pumping them full of beauty and acceptance
Making them spell out a future
And it seems to match up, but...
Maybe the only reason it matches up
Is because I'm forcing it to
...Maybe I'm delusional...
But you don't try and convince me otherwise
Which leads me to believe
...Maybe I'm not...
And I think I'm finally beginning to understand
The reasoning behind it all
Your intention is to keep me here
In a constant state of limbo
Never able to ascertain your true feelings
As a means of assurance
White lies keep me at your side
As an accessory
Just the right amount of distance
Makes me yearn for closeness
It's a brilliantly orchestrated plan
That keeps me nearby
Without the burden
Of actually caring for me
IowaIf you visit Iowa,
you'll call her fields empty,
but she wasn't born that way.
A part of her was carved out
when she was ripped between Virginia
and the purple mountains of New Mexico.
Her gold hair, she tore it out when she realized
it didn't make her a princess.
She laid her locks strung along every road
leading somewhere else.
White hairs on her cheeks
are scars from winter.
Her hair darkens with the dampness
of summer rains.
The storms are never silent,
but neither is life when there's a tear
in your childhood where
a parent ought to be.
I've been flooded by Iowa's sorrow.
The only way I can distract her from her own voided landscape
is if I hate myself harder than she cries.
She just wants to fly
and I want to bus or train,
not because I fear death, but because
I want to take living slow.
It's the only way I ever feel.
From the air it's hard to watch Earth's hips move.
But Earth can't compare to the country.
That's my girl.
Full grown even when harvesting season's j
To depression, for creating days without endWake up to the realization that you've been awake
for seconds, minutes, hours.
You've been awake in this warm, dark room
and you don't know how long it's been
but now you're conscious
and it starts again--
the pain, strong and steady, in your chest.
You gain consciousness in this too warm morning
and your thoughts whir in endless loops
because it's either that or face the weight in your chest.
Light breaks though the window, soft and unwelcome
but you take it as a reluctant gift--
a new distraction from the feelings awake in your chest.
Awake, but not conscious.
So you think yourself in circles a little while longer
waiting for those quiet pains
(the constant reminder)
to gain consciousness.
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